NewBorn Photo Shoot

I got our DVD of our photo shoot the other day.  I'm in love!  There are so many good pictures.  Now JD and I made the very big mistake of thinking we wouldn't be in any pictures so neither one of us was really prepared.  But that's okay one or two of the ones with us in them are alright.  The family shot is awful though.  You can totally see my still protruding 2 week baby bump.  Argh!  Oh well!  So with no further ado, here are some pictures of the L's!  Lol!

This last picture is one of my favorites.  My Mom hates it!  I think it's artistic and it shows just how tiny she was!  Speaking of tiny...My little 5 pounder is now...at 5 weeks...9 pounds!!!!  Crazy right!?!?  We think we figured out what all the crying is about.  It's growing pains.  She's 2 inches taller than at birth and my gosh she's 9 pounds now!  Yes there is some gas and acid reflux issues but you can't tell me growing that fast doesn't hurt?!?!  

Anyway time to sign off.  More blogging to come.  I've promised myself I will continue to document all of our adventures.  So there are plenty posts to come.  Next up...Daddy's vacation time!

Much Love!

ks

Lucy's Birth Story - Part 2

Okay so it is 1:00 and I am getting my epidural.  It was much easier this time as I wasn't swollen at all.  However the anesthesiologist had a complication she never has.  I had some spinal fluid ooze out of the injection site.  Which at the time I just shrugged my shoulders at.  Everything felt great.  I felt no pain what so ever.  The pitocin was turned on and we were getting things moving.  

By 2:00 I was starting to fell the contractions again.  I wasn't feeling pain necessarily, but I was feeling the tightening, and I was starting to get nauseas.  I sent JD to get me a ginger ale with ice and I asked my mom to check the monitors.  She looked at them and at the print out and says "honey you aren't having any contractions...?  What the heck are you complaining about...?"  At this point I was a little cranky and I said well then it is broken.  I wiggled it around a little and caught one on the monitor so I left it there.  My nurse came back in and said okay I'm going to crank the pitocin to full dose as it doesn't seem as though we are making a lot of progress.  Lol!  If only she knew!!!!  And she then passed my care off to another nurse as she went and had her lunch.

By 2:50 my mom and JD were getting a little stir crazy.  And I wasn't talking too much as I was getting the tightening nauseous feeling every 2 minutes or so.  My mom then convinced JD that they should go down to Timmie's for a coffee.  The nurse came back at this time and said "Oh yah you guys go...I'll cath her and top up her epidural, and check her."  We'll have a better idea of what is happening by the time you all come back...  Famous last words!  Lol!

My nurse at this point decided she would top up my epidural prior to cath'ing me.  So off I went to lala land again (I swear it felt like I drank a 12 pack to myself!), sh cath'ed me and then proceeded to check me.  As she is sitting beside me with her hands gosh knows where...She looks at me and grumbles "Holy Shit!"..."Guess how many...?"  I'm like "Oh god just tell me it's more than 3!"  She's like "honey you need to push like right now!  It's go time!"  She asked me to give her one push to see how good I was at this.  So I beared down and gave one push...she immediately said okay stop, stop, STOP!!!  We need to get the Dr in here and special care nursery....  And immediately she got on the phone and had everyone paged.  At this point I asked her to grab me my phone as I needed to get JD and my mom back to the room.  It was 3:05...

I texted JD.  I guess he was in the elevator when I texted him.  He and my mom were walking back into the maternity ward and they saw everyone gowned up and heading towards my room.  JD raced up to the Dr and was all "Hey what's happening?"  Dr.S laughed and said "Buddy you need to get in there!"  JD walked into the room ghost white with this funny smile on his face, coffee in hand with my mom running behind him!  It was quite the scene.  Upon seeing JD I immediately started crying.  I was so scared all of a sudden.  What if something was wrong from her pooping inside.  What if, what if, what if....And knowing it was the last time I was doing this just added extra emotion onto it.  My nurse was great, she calmed me down and JD hugged and kissed me and told me I could do this.  And that he loved me.

Last time in delivery my mom was able to hold one leg, but Dr.S likes to deliver sitting beside you holding your leg.  He even kept the bed in place (no dropping the bottom out).  So my mom was banished to a chair front in center...I yelled at her that there were to be no pictures of my HooHaa!  It broke the tension in the room.  Dr.S had the Special Care Dr's in the room for the delivery so they could suck out her lungs.  He advised me I had to pay attention to him, that we were going to get our baby girl out as safely as possible.  He told me when the contraction was coming and said I want you to push now for 10...I pushed...He said Oh my...okay 1 more...I pushed....He said stop at count 3...  He said okay ks I need you to do a small 50% push for just a 2 count....I did this 2 times, and her head was delivered.  The special care team came over and suctioned her lungs out...before she was even fully born.  Then Dr.S said okay 1 more little push and she's here.  And she was....screaming her way into the world!  She was PERFECT!!!!

I started pushing at 3:12 and Lucy entered the world at 3:20.  5 pushes and she was here!  JD and I were in a state of shock for the rest of the night.  It all happened so fast and so smoothly.  This time I was able to deliver the placenta, so I avoided the OR completely.  And for those wondering, no stitching was required.  I may not be very good at making babies, but man I can birth them!  Either that or I'm just blessed with small headed babies!  Lol!

Now I leave you with a teaser picture of Lucy's newborn photo shoot!

Much Love!

ks and the girls!

Photo Post

Okay Blogger friends are you ready to be bombarded with pictures...?  Just to warn you there is 2 belly bump pictures enclosed.  I wanted to show you how large I really got!  Lol!

We were leaving for the hospital and Lola was rubbing my belly so we thought okay lets get a kissing shot!  For the last 3 weeks of pregnancy Lola was so loving to my belly.  Constantly patting at it and coo'ing at the baby sister that was coming.  Unfortunately she is still tapping my belly and saying tummy...Lol...So I guess if I want that to stop I have to get rid of the baby hump!  Lol!

It was so different getting to do skin to skin right after delivery.  Last time I didn't really get to meet Lola until 24 hours old.  This time I was able to breast feed while my Dr delivered the placenta.  What a huge difference this made to me.  We bonded and connected right away.  I will say though it all felt a little out of body though as it all happened so very fast, and my epidural was so high.  I kid you not I texted a friend at 3:12 and had Lucy at 3:20.  No one believed me when I kept saying I'm feeling a lot of contractions.  No pain but the tightening and I felt like throwing up with each one.  Apparently I'm really good with labor and delivery.  It doesn't hurt that I tend to have tiny little babies!  Lol!

Lola loves to hold her sister.  Well she did the first 3 days at least.  You can see how tired she is in this picture.  Spending 2 days with her 6 year old twin cousins will wear anyone out.  The first time Lola held Lucy at the hospital (Lucy was 3 hours old), Nana asked if she could hold her sister and Lola adamantly put her arm around Lucy tighter and said "NO!"  So I guess there is no question that Lola will be Lucy's protector.

Sleeping peacefully after some mommy milk.  It's funny from some angles the girls look exactly the same, and then others they look nothing alike.  It's really hard to tell considering Lucy is a pound and a half bigger than LolaBean was.  Plus she's 2 inches taller.  I really hope LolaBean sees the benefits of being a petite girl, because I think her sister is going to have her beat in the height department.

I don't know if I told you all her full name...But her full name is Lucy Jordan.  She is named after her Daddy. Since this is our last baby and JD will never have a son, I though he should still have a name sake.  I actually wanted her first name to be Jordan, but JD didn't want that.  And we were not set on Lucy at all.  We went into the delivery room with Peyton, Avery, and Lucy...  And after she was born I looked at my husband and I said you name her.  I couldn't decide.  And I was adamant about LolaBean so I though he should get the honors with Cupcake.  My mom still calls her snowflake.  And my FIL truly believes our 2 girls are complete miracles sent directly from God.  (I tend to agree)  I mean look at what we went through...  2 failed DE cycles, success on the 3rd attempt with twins, only to lose one to a SCH, and then HELLP syndrome with IUGR for LolaBean, 1 embryo left (frozen in time for 2 years) with less than 20% chance of success, and yet we did it!  With a perfectly healthy pregnancy and delivery.  I would definitely say that these two are miracles.  

And I hope by reading our story we give those others who have failed some hope.  Hope is a really hard thing to keep through out the IF battle....  I'll save my thoughts on hope for another blog post.  I'm off to get my toddler up from her nap.  Life is busy here, but I promise I'll be getting online more often now that we are finally finding our groove!

Much Love!

ks

33, 34 and 35 Weeks at 35!

My apologies for my absence.  Everything is fine with CupCake and LolaBean.  We've had some work hiccups and some doggy drama that I'll expand on in a little bit.  But first let's get you all caught up on this pregnancy.

I seem to be nearing the end.  At my last Dr's appointment he advised me if I can make it to 37 weeks we will be looking at inducing me.  It's just too risky as I had HELLP syndrome last time.  He's not willing to take the chance.  Everything looks great though.  My blood pressure has been holding steady.  I had a growth scan a week and a half ago and baby weighed 5 lbs.  I've had 2 non stress tests and passed both with flying colors.  My weight is up, up, up!  Which is to be expected.  I had hoped to not exceed 25 lbs.  And unfortunately I am up 30 lbs. now.  But in 2 weeks I only put on a pound and so far this week, none.  I have started to swell though.  And by swelling I mean gigantic, to the point of bruising!!!!  I did way too much on Saturday and started swelling mid day.  Well the swelling finally went down to a reasonable level yesterday!  So that's 5 days!  I ate broccoli, asparagus and pounded the water for those 5 days.  I also had JD give me very painful foot and calf rubs to try to pull the swelling out.  I do think having a bath in Epson salts really helped too by the way.

We still have not 100% decided on a name for our little cupcake.  We are all over the map on names.  I'm a little anxious about it to be honest with you.  Her room is ready though.  Lola's is finished as well.  I'll post pictures of that soon I promise!  I am packing my suitcase tonight.  I just have 2 more things to purchase and then I am ready.  For some reason a part of me thinks this baby is going to come on her own.  I think it will be the last week of June though.  My employee thinks it'll be next week!  Lol!  Only time will tell.

This weekend is Lola's 2nd birthday!  What a big girl I have.  She sings, dances, speaks in sentences, tells me when she poops or toots!  Lol!  There are just so many changes at this age it is so hard to keep up with them.  Everyday she throws me a new curve ball.  She's such a happy baby!  I feel so incredibly blessed.

And yes as the title indicates.  I am now 35!  My birthday was not a big how do you do though.  I worked.  JD forgot to get me the cake I've asked for for 5 years.  I was really really hurt by that.  I had only asked for one thing.  A dairy.queen ice cream cake.  I've been asking for it since my tube removal surgery on my 30th birthday.  And I am still waiting....  He did however get me a nice thoughtful present.  But I am having him return it so we can put the money towards the double running stroller I want.  I know...But right now it's a matter of need over want.

I am still working.  On what was to be my last day my one employee up and quit on me.  No notice.  I have a better job offer today is my last day!  FUCK!!!!  This sucks!  So I am working until I really can't anymore.  Which means until my water breaks or the Dr induces me.  We are of course looking for someone, but the quality of people that have come in lately is depressing to say the least.

Onto the doggy drama.  It looks as though we are going to have to put down my dear old dog, Maddie.  I am so heartbroken about this.  She has had a great life though.  She is 13 1/2 years old.  She has recently gone blind (no biggy), but it appears she had an ulcer on her eyeball that has now infected and is trying to rupture.  Disgusting!  We have been to the vet and they want to send us to an animal ophthalmologist.  Not going to happen.  That would be a $500 walking through the door appointment.  And then what?  Surgery to remove the eye?  She's 13 1/2 with a bum neck.  I can't in good conscience do this to my old dog.  Sure my heart is breaking at losing her.  And I feel awful that the money factor is playing any type of role in our decision making process.  But we have to be realistic.  We have a newborn on the way, a toddler, me off work for at least a year, so taking care of a sickly dog and spending that kind of money right before things are about to get tighter around here...Not an option.  

So I'm sad...Sorry to leave you all on this note...But this is getting really long...  How about I leave you with 2 bump pictures?!

Much Love!

ks

Hello 3rd Trimester! (Belly Pic)

This post will be pregnancy related so if you are not in a place as to read this...please feel free to skip it.  

I can't believe I'm this far along.  And I'm still almost fully functional!  Lol!  I say almost as I'm finding I can still do stuff, just a little slower, and then I tend to suffer for a day or two.  My long 11 hour days of work are almost over though.  My long day this week was Tuesday and I was on my feet for 10 of the 11 hours.  I was exhausted.  And my feet hurt so bad I almost cried.  So I cut out early yesterday and went for a pedicure.  Oh my was that heaven!  I will admit this week I have done too much.  I have painted Lola's wainscoting (2 coats on 9 panels), I have put the first coat on her bedroom (JD did the trim, I rolled), and I've worked.  So a little too much with taking care of a toddler and doing all the other wifey duties that call my name.  

I haven't weighed myself in the last 3 days but I was up a pound last week.  Making it a total of 21 lbs gained so far.  Yikes!  I was hoping to stay under 25 lbs, but whatever...  It's just a number.  I am officially exclusively wearing maternity clothes.  Even my shirts will not cover this belly anymore.  They are just too short.  One thing that kind of sucks though is I can not fit into any of my old maternity clothes as they are all huge on me.  But I'm really trying to minimize my purchases (JD would disagree) as this will definitely be my last pregnancy.  My belly button is officially out.  And out to the point where you can see it through my clothes.  I kind of hate that.  

The headaches...They seem to have tapered off.  Thank gosh!  The swelling is starting but it's not extreme and it always goes down after I sit and re-hydrate.  Hmmm...what else...Oh yah stretch marks.  Well I have no new ones.  And none on my belly.  They are the ones I got AFTER delivery with Lola on my upper thighs.  They are visible again.  I'm lotioning the daylights out of them and it does seem to be helping.  Only time will tell.

Well that's about all the pregnancy update for now.  I don't have another ob appointment until May 1.  And I have no idea about my next u/s.  Oh right the belly picture...Lol!  Here you go!  :)

Much Love!

ks

99 Days Left!

Wowzer!  I can't believe we are down to the double digits.  It's time for an update on how this pregnancy is fairing.  

So far everything is great!  My blood pressure is stable.  I've had small boughts of swelling but it's always gone down after hydrating and putting my feet up.   The acid reflux is starting but I've managed it okay until now with tums or avoiding foods I know is going to cause it.  Little Miss Frostie is an active baby and lets me know she is there all the time.  I can actually watch her kicking me as my belly hops and shifts.  My weight gain isn't fantastic...I'm up 20 lbs now.  But I'm blaming it on the cravings that started last week.  I ate a whole birthday cake!  And it was no ones birthday!  Lol!  Plus the fact that I've been on Dr's orders to take it easy has meant I've been way less active than I would like to be.  But...this is all changing now!  My placenta is moving up.  It was at 1 cm now it is at 3 cm from the cervix.  So I've been advised I can relax a bit on my 'resting'.  Which means I am going to try to start using my at home elliptical   I'm aiming to start with at least 15 minutes a day and then move it up to 1/2 an hour as my confidence grows.  My body is missing the running.  My muscles are seizing up and just begging to get used.  I've had to drop Sunday yoga as it was cutting into our family time.  We don't have a lot of time where all of us are together and Sunday afternoon is our one day a week where we get to spend 4-5 hours together.  JD is on 60 days straight or some crazy S like that!  It's insane!

We still do not have a name picked out for Miss Frostie.  Nothing feels right yet.  We have a few contenders, but nothing that is like OH YAH THAT'S IT!!!!  So far we have Molly Jane, Peyton Jordan, or Jordan Jane...I don't know....

I've done oodles of work on the basement.  I am ready for the electrician this weekend.  He is coming to put in 5 outlets in the basement so we can have power in our 2 make shift guest rooms and our work out area.  Right now there is only one outlet for a 900 square foot area!  WTF!?!?!  Good job builder!  Once he's done I am going to start painting the wainscoting for Lola's new room.  This weekend while the electrician does his work in the basement I plan on washing the walls in Lola's room to prep it for painting.  I will also be removing the old curtains and hanging the new light fixture.  I plan on actually doing the painting next weekend!  And I'm sure Miss Lola is going to be a huge help with this.  

Well this post is getting a little long...  I don't have a new belly picture yet, but I will take one on the weekend for you...But don't fret...I'll leave you with some recent Lola pictures!  Ahhh My Love!!!!

Much Love!

ks

Snow Baby is a ....

GIRL!!!!

I can't believe it!  I'm totally shocked!  I thought for sure we were having a boy!  JD has thought girl since before the transfer.  So he wasn't too surprised.  But he did laugh and laugh when he finally found out.  I bought a onsie that says Little Sister and put it and the 3D picture at his place at the dinner table for when he got home from work.  It was nice to surprise him with something!  

I thought I would feel a little sad that we won't have a son, but actually I'm really quite fine.  This will definitely be my last pregnancy.  We will never cycle again.  And I'm totally good with this.  My family feels complete.  We really just wanted Lola to have a sibling.  Someone to grow up with.  We really did not want her to be an only child.  And by God's grace we have been blessed with a second miracle.  Thank God for Science and a great team of Doctor's!  

So now the trouble of picking a name begins.  We have none to date that are stand outs to us.  Thankfully we have quite a bit of time.  And another huge bonus of this one being a girl is that I really don't need to buy anything.  I saved all the super cute fabulous clothes Lola wore!  So it's awesome to know that we only have to spend money on making Lola a toddler room!  I'm so excited!!!!  This all just became super real!

One more major milestone for us to pass is my next OB appointment on Monday.  I will find out all the results from my level II testing.  This is where everything went sideways with Lola with the PAPP-A.  I think everything is looking good though or else he would have mentioned something at my last appointment (I think).  I'll keep you all posted!

I'm off to shop maternity clothes on-line!

Much Love!

ks

17 Weeks - With Pictures

17 weeks!  Wow!  I can't believe everything is still just ticking along as it should.  I feel the snow baby almost daily.  Not enough that anyone else could feel it, it's just once you've experienced it you never forget the sensation, so I think you feel it sooner on number 2.  Okay let's get to the pictures...  the first picture was taken on the morning of the transfer.  Actually it was on the way to the transfer, hence the lack of heels.  Lol!  If you know me at all you know I always wear a heal unless it's snowing then I wear my Harley's...  But anyway in that picture I was 129 lbs.  Awesome!!!  The second picture I took yesterday.  You can see the belly has definitely popped out.  I think I am 135 lbs. right now.  I don't know I haven't weighed myself this week.  I feel a lot bigger than that though.  I'm a little afraid to get on the scale.  But I will say this today I am wearing the exact same outfit that I am in picture #1, it just fits a little snugger...  Lol!  

 

I haven't purchased or tried on any of my maternity clothes yet.  Mainly because I lent a lot of my maternity clothes to a friend and just haven't gotten them back.  The problem is the friend is the same size as me (roughly) and everything is too big for her as well.  So it sounds like I am going to have to buy some new pants.  And I think I am going to have to break down soon too.  Everything just feels uncomfortable lately.  It just all hits in the wrong spots.  

Health wise I'm feeling okay.  I've been battling a head cold for over a week now and that is dragging me down.  But other than that I'm alright.  I still am suffering from wicked headaches, but I'm getting used to them.  I have my level II ultrasound on Monday.  I'm hoping I will be able to find out the sex.  JD is not able to come to the appointment with me, so I just might not share if I do find out. Lol!  Who am I kidding I won't be able to contain myself.  This is when it became very real with Lola and I have a feeling it will be the same with snow baby.  

And no I have not made it back to the gym yet.  That is one thing that is really putting me a bad mood.  I just can't seem to find the time or the energy.  I know I would feel a whole lot better if I just went and did it, but honestly the hour of alone time in between work and picking up Lola is just so nice at the house...  I get the dishes done, I lay out dinner, I have a snack and a power nap.  I am still going to pre-natal yoga and that feels good.  I also am back to taking Lola swimming, but we are going on Sunday mornings now.  That's about all I have on pregnancy #2 updates.  

I thought I would leave you with a picture of the LolaBean.  She was on a nature walk with Daddy...Hence the joyous smile on her face.  She's a total Daddy's Girl.  

Much Love!

ks

All About Lola Post!

Oh my she is just too funny!  I think this might just be my favorite age.  We have quite the little talker on our hands.  She parrots almost everything we say.  So JD and I are really having to watch our P's and Q's lately. I have no idea how many words she actually has as I haven't sat there and counted.  But she sure does pick things up pretty quick.  She now knows who Santa is!  And she says his name a whole lot!  Lol!  We are having trouble with L's though.  She won't even attempt a word with an L in it?  She used to say Lalalala as a baby but now never!  We've been working on it.  

Her understanding of her surroundings is amazing too!  I ask her where Mommy's belly is.  And she proceeds to pull up my shirt and tap my belly!  I tell her it's bath time and she runs to the stairs and heads to her bathroom.  If I tell her Mommy has to go potty, she goes to the gate and tries to open it for me so I can go to the powder room!  Lol!  Yes I tell my child Mommy is going pee pee in the potty!  I'm planning on attempting potty training over the holidays (as I'll be home with her from the 24th to the 2nd).  I ask Lola if she wants a Reece's Pieces.  She yells pieces and runs to the kitchen corner where I keep them!

Oh running!  This is something she has really been working on.  She doesn't quite have it down yet, but she's getting faster.  Lately she has this new thing we've named Happy Feet!  Where she stands in one spot and pretends she's running.  It's hilarious!  She's also getting more dance moves.  She now stomps her feet, claps her hands above her head and of course she does the booty drop!  God this child kills me!  Lol!  

Her eating habits have been a little all over the place lately.  I think we've been teething for over a month now.  She has one canine through, and I think the others are on their way down and out as well.  So she's gone hot and cold.  As in one day she wants hot food, next day cold food, some days only really soft food, others crunchy.  She's obsessed with asparagus right now.  Is hating corn all of a sudden?  It's been a total guessing game.  And since I've been feeling terrible for over a week now, our home cooked dinners have been few and far between.  So Lola has had to enjoy some pretty boring meals.  Not a lot of creative juices flowing when everything makes you green and when you usually  prep meals while she naps instead, yourself are snoring logs on the couch.  The quick easy dinners tend to win!

We finally took LolaBean for her very first haircut last weekend.  It wasn't too bad.  JD only had one single tear escape.  My big softie hubby!  I swear her hair was thicker 2 days later!  We've now started blowdrying her hair at night after her bath.  I blow dry it while she brushes her teeth.  She refuses to let anyone else help her brush her teeth.  So we just let her do it.  

I have just one picture I can share today.  I haven't plugged in my phone lately so this is 3 weeks old.  I will get off my butt soon though and get some good pictures up!  Maybe in 4 weeks when my nausea is gone!  Lol!

That's all for today!

Much Love!

ks

 

7DP FET

About an hour after my last post!  I snuck upstairs and poas...And lo behold...a shadowy second line appeared!  For all you POAS addicts out there...

I'm going nuts!  Is the line getting darker?  Is this a chemical?  Oh please!  Oh please! Please 'snowbaby' stick around!  

Gosh the 2ww is mind blowingly stressful!!  I forgot just how nerve wracking this is!  Okay maybe I didn't.  But I tried to tell myself I would be okay this time even if I did start getting positives...And I'm not!  This is the IF knowledge that stinks!  We all know of too many chemicals or early miscarriages.  Heck we know of too many horrible endings in general.  Arrrggghhh  IF you old BITCH!  Back off and let me enjoy this!

Much Love!

ks

PS
And please do weigh in...Does this look okay for 7 days post?

Couldn't Resist!

I just had to share this picture!

This was taken in September with my Mommy Group.  We had a group 1st Birthday Party!  Didn't this picture turn out great!  I will actually take this picture down soon though, for every one's privacy sake.  Even though this picture is plastered all over FB right now.  LOL!  I'm waiting for the rest of my pictures from the photographer, but once they are here I will definitely post some more!

Much Love!

ks

Lining Check..?

And Good!!!  Woot!  Woot!  My lining is over 10mm and my estridol levels are good.  I started the PIO this morning.  So it appears we are rocking and rolling forward with the FET train!  Phew!  

I will admit I did cry this morning as I got my first PIO shot.  Not from physical pain.  It's the emotions.  It just shouldn't be normal for us to have to do all of this to try to expand our family and yet it is and has.  But JD gave me a hug, I pulled up my big girl pants, wiped my eyes, and proceeded to wake my baby girl to get on with my day.  Because you know what..?  I will take a shot in the bum everyday for the rest of my life if it means I get to have another baby.

Now onto other matters!

Lola has started with some temper tantrums.  I think I've got it figured out.  But yesterday was really funny.  JD was home so he got to witness a full temper tantrum.  He had to leave the room he was laughing so hard. She's such a DIVA!  The tantrums seem to only happen when she's tired, thankfully.  

I've recently had to introduce timeouts though.  We've had some instances of being mean to the doggies.  They aren't long.  They are age appropriate.  And she knows she's been bad when she gets one.  But dang it, even I have trouble doing it as she's just so cute and funny.  

Example...?

Seriously?!?!  How cute is she?  Oh my gosh I just love this little girl with all my heart!  

Okay folks I'm off!  I probably won't blog again until "Thaw Tuesday".  Please keep the prayers coming for frostie!

Much Love!

ks

Teething ... And blogger advise needed!

What a nightmare teething can be!  It sneaks up on you.  And I don't know about everyone else's babies but with LolaBean it's kind of a guessing game that it is her teeth that are bugging her.  LB has a full mouth of teeth.  The only ones she is missing is her four eye teeth, stomach teeth, canines, whatever people call them!  LOL!  I've heard them referred to by all this last week!  Because she has a mouth full of teeth it is very rare that we actually get up enough nerve to stick our fingers in her mouth.  The minute you do put that peter pointer finger near her mouth she chomps down with all her might with this devilish little smile on her face.  And she laughs and laughs while you squeal in pain!  It's just plain mean!  And of course it is something JD taught her.  I told him to stop laughing when she would bite him as it would turn into all kinds of bad.  Did he listen?  Nope!  LOL!  Momma knows!

Suffice it to say this last week has been a bit of a struggle.  We've had the flu bug rip through my offices, my sitters, my family and friends, and LB teething.  This time with her teething she decided not to eat or sleep.  She went without food from Wednesday to Sunday, just taking bottles and the random yogurt and some, very little fruit.  Arrggh!  But the sleeping thing was killing us.  And even now with the tooth broken through she is still getting up at around 4:45 am every day.  This is not very productive to Mommy getting ready for work.  I can only get up so dang early!  

Usually my little muffin pops more than one tooth at a time, so I don't think we are out of the woods yet...  But she's still happy so that's a plus!  I can't believe how fast this last 16 months has gone.  I so hope I get to experience all of this again.  Even the pregnancy stuff.  Oh the aches and pains, but then the best part the kicks!  It makes me all teary eyed just thinking of it!  One of my employees is pregnant...I kind of have a hard time looking at her belly and yet I try and peak at it every week to see if it's bigger.  Gosh IF has really done a number on me!

I realized I haven't posted any pics in awhile...So for your viewing pleasure...Without further ado...Miss LolaBean!

Sick Baby with a cold, but still rocking her sweet sense of style!

Pointing out all the fallen leaves!

Her New Pink Chair

Maybe I'll do a full separate post about this...but I'll put this question out there to all my blog friends.  What photo programs are you all using to be able to write on your photos?  And seriously can any one help me redesign my blog?  I hate that I have no clue how to navigate blogger anymore.  It's not nearly as user friendly as it once was.  Help!!!

Much Love!

ks

11 Weeks Old!

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And every day you fascinate me more and more.  I fall deeper in love every time I look at you.  You now smile at us when we do goofy things.  You hold your head up on your own.  You giggle mostly in your sleep, but we are working on getting those giggles directed to us!  You love the 3 musketeers!  Instead of playing with your toys you watch them during mat time!  LOL!  You LOVE Baby Mozart!  You are finally wearing 0-3 months clothes!  Oh my sweet LolaBean you are the light of my life!

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So now onto what had been going on in my world...  I started dom.per.idone and it seems to be really working.  Lola is now only getting 1-2 bottles of formula a day.  Mind you I am not pumping at all.  There really isn't any time to pump!  But she is definitely getting tons of breast milk.  So much so she likes to get a mouthful and then spit it back onto my (.)(.)!  Nice! 

At her 2 month appointment she weighed 9'10, so she is definitely over 10 lbs now.  She has outgrown all newborn things and most 0-3 month diaper shirts.  She doesn't quite fit into the Car.ter's 3 month sleepers or pants yet but she is getting there!  So for now the sleep sacks (night dress) are working, even though she hates getting them put on!

We noticed at about 6 weeks that Lola was only looking right on her play mat.  So I moved all the toys to the left, and she still wouldn't look left.  I brought this up at the Dr's and he checked her out.  Yes it appears she has slight torticollus (stiff neck), so we have been waiting for 3 weeks for the ped physio to call us and get us in.  Well on Monday I called a pediatric Osteopath, she got us in for yesterday.  So we had our first hour appointment yesterday.  Little Miss handled it quite well.  There is definitely a shortening in the muscles on the one side of the neck, it's not severe, but it is really good that we are getting this addressed right away.  This is the stage where the shape of your babies head is set, and one side is already a smidgen larger than the other from the skin being pulled by the tightened muscles.  There is also a nerve that runs the same path as the muscles but it runs into your digestive system.  This is probably being compressed at times causing the digestive issues that we are having.  Cause man can my baby girl honk the horn!  Her other nick name in the house is Tootsie!  LOL!  Anyway I'm really glad that we are finally getting this all looked at and taken care of.  I don't want my bean to be in any pain.

I've also been back to the gym.  :0  4 times this week.  I've done a bars & plates class, spin, boot camp and yoga.  So I am back and with a vengeance!  I have to get my body back in shape for attempt #2.  I do not want to possibly go into a 2nd pregnancy still carrying all this extra weight.  WE haven't fully decided when we are going to cycle again.  We've discussed February, but I think it will be more likely next October.  I'd really like to do this triathlon next Sept in Wasaga.  So we'll see!

Anyway I better run, LolaBean is starting to nap, so I need to as well!  LOL!

Much Love!

ks



1 Month and 2 Month Pictures!

  

Phew we have been busy!  JD has unfortunately had to cut back on staff at our two offices, so he has been working 14 hour days for the last month and a half, so it's just been me!  Even weekends are out for him right now.  We had one weekend free and we went to my hometown, so not really a break!  Miss Lo.laBean is fantastic!  The pro biotic drops are definitely helping her!  We still have a Miss FussPants some evening but that is just baby stuff!

She got her first shots on Monday, and that went as good as can be expected!  LOL!  I sat in the hall and cried while Daddy held her for her shots.  She was seriously mad that afternoon though.  And then she slept for almost 24 hours straight, she was even sleeping through her feedings, sleep sucking!  LOL!  I started dom.peri.done almost a week ago, and it has made a big difference!  I am able to be back up to 50/50 with her feedings.  Some days are harder than others.  Some days she just does not want to be on the boob!  What's a mom supposed to do?!?  Her appetite is unbelievable!  She crushes anywhere from 4-6 ounces every 2-2 1/2 hours.  However, she will sleep up to 5 hours throughout the night.  We definitely have a bewitching hour!  It is right now as a matter of fact.  Daddy has her right now!  Teehee! 

Okay so onto the stats...  Lola's birth weight was 4'12.  At 4 weeks she was 6'01.  And at 9 weeks (2 months) she is ....  wait for it...  9'10!!!!  :0

And here is some pictures of our chunky monkey!





I have over 200 pictures of my love, but I didn't want to overload you all!  Lol!  We are going to try her 2 month photo shoot again tomorrow (1 week over 2 months).  And I've promised her I will not force her to wear a headband or a hat!  Lol!

Anyway, I'm actually under the weather right now, and having a (Urrrgghhh TMI) period, so I'm feeling nice and horrible.  I promise I will get my butt back to blogging and commenting very soon.  I am reading daily I'm just not commenting.  I read on my I.pad while I breast feed, but I can't really type while I bf, so ....  Just know I am thinking of all of you daily.

Much Love!

ks & LolaBean!

Introducing... Our Sweet Little Miss!

Day 2 - Needed a little help getting rid of her jaundice!  She was a Champ though!

Doing some kagaroo care with Mom!  She had just had a bath and smelled wonderful!  OMG!  I think my heart is going to explode I am so in love with this little Beaner!

The Nursery Revealed!

It is finally all finished!  Wow what a job!  I think it took us this long as we were afraid we were getting ready for heart ache.  But we've moved (sort of) past this stage, and are embracing that we have a baby girl coming home in the next 4 weeks (maybe sooner)!  Without further ado....

Well there it is.  The pictures on the wall are from embryo development until now.  I have one blank one that will get filled on Thursday.  And the pink one is save for her newborn pictures.  I know it's hard to tell the wall colour but it is actually white.  We wanted to stay very gender neutral on the colour that way if we are fortunate enough to get preggo on our last embryo, we can adjust the nursery to suit whatever second bubble might be.

Things are going well here.  I have a feeling that I will be very lucky to make it another 2 weeks.  I don't know why I feel this way, but I really don't think I am going to make it to 40 weeks.  But who knows, watch I'll end up getting induced!  LOL!  I finished packing her diaper bag.  I packed my 'travel' bag, minus my make up and hair stuff obviously.  And when JD gets home I am going to get him to get my suitcase from the basement so I can start getting my hospital suitcase ready to rock.

I am still having issues with 'Blogger'.  I can not access one of my blog favorites.  And I really want Meagan to know that I am thinking of her.  I have been where she is, and it is a hard place to pull yourself out of.  Nothing about IF is fair.  You just do what you can to keep it together and keep putting one foot in front of the other.  If that means taking a girls weekend, hitting the gym, shopping (even when you don't need it), or eating pounds of chocolate than do it.  Slowly but surely you will recover from this failure.  I promise.  Please know I am thinking of you!

Mush Love!

ks



Belly Picture and Favorite T-Shirt! :)

So hard to take a belly shot by yourself!  But here is my first attempt!  I promise to try to get a better one soon.  One where I am not twisting in a knot!  LOL!



I ordered this t-shirt when we finally hit the 2nd trimester.  I had been waiting for 2 years to buy this shirt!  I haven't worn it out in public yet, but it is my go to t-shirt when I get home.  JD loves it.  It's empowering to know that we fought IF and are (hopefully) going to come out the other side of this! 

Now onto other matters...  Today I have my big Doppler velocity blah, blah, blah ultra sound.  Today is where we find out if the placenta and the umbilical cord are working properly.  I didn't sleep very well most of the night again.  Too much stress and fear I guess.  Plus little Miss has been pretty quiet for the last couple of days so I start to worry.  She is still moving but not as hard, as frequent, or as long.  I know that is normal, but dang it still throws me into a tail spin.  Oh well!  If you are a prayer, please pray that my blood work is just one of those things, and that everything is fine with little Miss.  I will post an update when I can!

Much Love!

ks