7DP FET

About an hour after my last post!  I snuck upstairs and poas...And lo behold...a shadowy second line appeared!  For all you POAS addicts out there...

I'm going nuts!  Is the line getting darker?  Is this a chemical?  Oh please!  Oh please! Please 'snowbaby' stick around!  

Gosh the 2ww is mind blowingly stressful!!  I forgot just how nerve wracking this is!  Okay maybe I didn't.  But I tried to tell myself I would be okay this time even if I did start getting positives...And I'm not!  This is the IF knowledge that stinks!  We all know of too many chemicals or early miscarriages.  Heck we know of too many horrible endings in general.  Arrrggghhh  IF you old BITCH!  Back off and let me enjoy this!

Much Love!

ks

PS
And please do weigh in...Does this look okay for 7 days post?

5DP FET

And I still haven't POAS!  I know crazy right?!  I'm too scared...  What if it's negative?  What if this didn't work?  I don't want to pop the bubble too soon...But at the same time I want to know...Arrgghhh!  This whole IF business is a real kick in the uterus!

How am I feeling...Well...Most of my weird little symptoms could be from the PIO or it could just all be in my head!  But I'll write them down for future reference.  As I know I've been scrolling the Internet for others going through the 2ww...

Achieness in my uterus...Check

Waves of nausea ..Check...which is really weird for me as I've never had morning sickness...I think it might be stress related or being over tired.

And folks that's it...I have no sore tatas...no tugging or pulling sensations in my uterus.  Nothing.  So as you can see there is absolutely no way to know one way or the other what is actually going on in there.  JD has asked me not to POAS.  He wants me to wait until Tuesday.  I see his point.  We are enjoying this time of being in the moment and PUPO.  And really who wants to be proven otherwise when there is nothing you can do about it.  SIGH!!!

I know I'll make it through a negative...as I swear I have the sweetest baby.  She has now started in the morning just calling for me in this tiny little happy voice.  Mommy....Dada...Mommy...Dada...?  Oh my gosh it just melts our hearts!  Before she always just chattered, but now she knows who she wants and she wants us!  *heart expanding*.  The first 2 nights of us being home she was getting up and calling us in the middle of the night.  I think she was afraid we were gone again.  Poor little mite!  But sure enough one of us would go in and lay her down and she'd happily go back to LALA land!  LOL!  

On a side note!  I am so over the moon excited for Will and Mo!  It just fills my heart to know that they are finally reaching their happy ending.  And I am so glad she is going to get to experience that heart exploding love that stays for the next (I don't know) 18 years of life with your child!  Congratulations Will & Mo!  I wish you all the joy in the world with Ms. Magpie!

Oh My Gosh!!!

There really are no words!  Just a nervous happy couple!  I'll post more of an update when I can properly function.  Thank you all for your positive thinking.  I have to ask that you all keep it coming this is still so early.

Much Love!

ks

*Blogger friend asked when I was getting back to the gym?  Tonight!*

Hallucinating..?!?!





Can you see it????  There is a shadow of a line, maybe...  I don't know...  What I do know though is that every time I have taken a test that was negative it was very negative ie: snowy white.  I don't know why it is so much harder to see it here, because on my phone you can clearly see the shadowy beautiful pink line.  This is the test from yesterday, 6dp 5dt.  I tested again this morning and got another shadowy line.  Oh God I hope this isn't a chemical.  Please let this be real. 

I might delete the picture because I am a little embarrassed of my pee stick madness.  But I'm going nuts here in this 2ww.  I really want to get back to the gym but I'm afraid to.  What if I screw anything up?  Oh the stress of the dreaded 2ww!!!  God grant me the strength to make it through this.

Much Love!

ks