October 13, 2012

Deleted...With Reasons

I decided to delete my last post as I wish to keep this blog for the Bean.  And I don't really want her to know the trouble that is between JD and I right now...I'm sure she senses it...I'm positive she does...

I'm stuck in a rock and a hard place at this moment...  This issue that has come up has been one that has been in our marriage  relationship for 14 years.  I'm so tired of this battle.  I'm so tired of being the adult in a room full of people 20 years my senior.

My entire adult life I've been told "Be the Bigger Person".  And I have.  And I probably will continue to be so...  However when it comes to my daughter...  ABSOLUTELY NOT!

Her well being and comfort is my number one priority.  Over my extended family.  Over my husband.  Over my own health and well being.  

My house is silent.  It has been since 2:00 on Friday afternoon.  There is no communication fix.  We've each said what we want to say.  Unfortunately recent actions speak volumes.  And because of this...I sit here on my computer contemplating...well everything...

I don't know what this week brings.  I don't know if we are going to go to Washington anymore.  I don't want to...  I just don't know anymore...


5 comments:

J o s e y said...

:( I'm so sorry to read this. Marriage is tough, especially when you throw TTC into the mix. Good luck working through things.

Just the Tip said...

I am so sorry =(

Brenda said...

So sorry. I hope things start to settle down and you have more serenity and clarity soon. :(

Michelle D said...

Oh I'm so sorry to hear of your current confusion and feelings. I hope things are able to work themselves out.

J o s e y said...

I just read this updated post. I just wanted to say that YOU and your daughter are you husband's family right now, and YOU and your daughter should be the "side" he chooses if it comes to something your inlaws are doing that you don't approve of (in regards to you and your daughter). Hang in there hon...