Scared, excited, nervous, and hopeful. I am a mixed bag of emotions today. Our appointment is at 2:30. I really wish I had made it for earlier, but I knew that JD would have trouble making it if I made it too early in the day. I also have to get some blood work done with this u/s so I think we are going to try to be there for 2:00 and get the blood work done first.
Right now I'm feeling very detached. I'm trying so hard not to get too attached to the idea of being pregnant. I know it's stupid, because even if it goes bad today I am going to be just as crushed. But I can't help it. I'm really having a hard time believing. It doesn't mean I don't want this, I do, I really do... I do believe in happy endings. My support board is full of them. But I know the heart ache as well. Jeez! The 'fertiles' really don't know how easy they have it do they?
Hopefully I'll be logging on quickly to give you all a good update later today. Until then....
Little Bebe...We love you more than words can say. Please still be with us...