December 16, 2010

Scan.Day!

Scared, excited, nervous, and hopeful.  I am a mixed bag of emotions today.  Our appointment is at 2:30.  I really wish I had made it for earlier, but I knew that JD would have trouble making it if I made it too early in the day.  I also have to get some blood work done with this u/s so I think we are going to try to be there for 2:00 and get the blood work done first.

Right now I'm feeling very detached.  I'm trying so hard not to get too attached to the idea of being pregnant.  I know it's stupid, because even if it goes bad today I am going to be just as crushed.  But I can't help it.  I'm really having a hard time believing.  It doesn't mean I don't want this, I do, I really do...  I do believe in happy endings.  My support board is full of them.  But I know the heart ache as well.  Jeez!  The 'fertiles' really don't know how easy they have it do they? 

Hopefully I'll be logging on quickly to give you all a good update later today.  Until then....

Much Love!

ks

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Little Bebe...We love you more than words can say.  Please still be with us... 

3 comments:

LisainSK said...

Hang tight!!! Post as soon as you can!! Fingers crossed all is well.

DM said...

Best wishes all is well.

Brenda said...

Best wishes that all is well. Thinking of you both (all three of you, actually!)!