Here Spot! Here SPOT!!!

Blech!

No freaking out though!  It's just been a little bit for the last 2 days.  So of course I'm having *DBT.  Of course!  But I am seriously trying not to freak the frig out.  Because really what would that accomplish?  A whole lot of sweet F all!  But I am a titch bit crankier than usual.  And unfortunately JD is getting the brunt of that.  Also I think he's asking for it.  He's been kind of an ass lately.  I think he too might be a bit stressed out.  He'd like to be here more and help me more, so that I can actually rest with my feet up when the spotting happens, but alas he has to work.  And Lola is demanding.  So I'm just doing what I do.  But when she allows me to I sit with my feet up.  Now if I could just teach her to stop drop bum'ing me into the ribs that would be awesome!

I don't know if I mentioned this or not...but I have pulled a rib muscle from coughing (over a week ago).  It still has not healed.  I am in agony with this.  And I just can't shake this stupid cough.  I've also been incredibly pukey all weekend.  Yesterday I was able to keep down prunes and ice cream (not at the same time. Lol!)  And so far today I have kept down toast and a yogurt drink.  But I did turn awfully green after my yogurt drink.  Blech!

I have contact SG and my local clinic for an ultra sound.  I think they are going to try to get me in tomorrow. I don't know what to expect.  A part of me thinks Frostie is gone.  But the other part of my head says stop worrying it's just the SCH clearing itself up.  It's old blood and it has to go somewhere...  I don't know.  Only time will tell.

I did go swimming on Friday.  And OMG it felt great!  I didn't push it.  I didn't go hard or long.  But it just felt good to stretch my muscles again.  And to get my heart beating again.  Oh I so hope this SCH is healing and I can get back to my normally programmed schedule!  LOL!  I've just finished doing some cyber.monday shopping to hopefully clear up my day on Wednesday so that I can take Lola swimming.  See there is a benefit to being a lazy arse and doing your shopping online!  Teehee!  

(See I'm okay...I'm not stressing out...No...not at all...okay a little)  Lola's at the sitter's today and I was at work for a full 1/2 hour.  Now I'm home drinking water with my feet up.  And of course checking every 1/2 hour for spotting or anything.  I really hope they can get me in for tomorrow.  I really hope everything is fine. Stay tuned...You'll know when I know!

*DBT - Dead baby thoughts

Much Love!

ks