Going through my usual blog rolls on the weekend. I came across a blog post about this documentary. It's called On Infertile Ground. Please feel free to check it out here...On Infertile Ground
I really liked the clip I was able to view. I liked it so much that I *liked* it on FB even. After all these years of infertility I still find myself shy at times to post or really speak out.
It's such a personal issue.
That and I don't want people thinking I'm looking for pity or attention. Or maybe it's more so that it truly is such a personal journey, and some people might not understand.
I blog yes. But it's still a little anonymous. There is really a small circle of people I confide in about my feelings regarding infertility. I would love to contribute to discussions and projects about infertility, but I just don't know if I'm strong enough yet.
I hate crying in front of people. And I still cry. Alone though.
I don't know if there will be a time in the future when I won't cry about our infertility. I really do think there is some credit to those that believe that this type of infertility can lead to PTSD. I don't doubt it. I'm 100% certain that I am forever scarred from that day in the RE's office.
My family building didn't go as I had planned. We don't have as much money as we once did. And we are older than we intended to be. But...I was able to have a baby...I can always make more money...(who needs to retire anyway!)...and so what if my knees crack! I'm happier today than I have even been. And I've made some amazing discoveries about myself and my husband along the way.
Any who...Check out the documentary...support it if you can...
I had to write this post over 3 times. My stupid computer keeps shutting down and not saving. This is probably the worst draft of this post, but now I'm in a hurry! LOL! Of course! More to come on FET prep!
Do NOT watch "What to Expect When You are Expecting" if you are not in the mood for Infertility stuff. I wasn't prepared for it...Whoops! Total buzz kill on a Saturday night!