December 10, 2010

Rough Morning (Warning TMI)

In more ways than 1...

First Item of Crap!

I had another episode this morning while blow drying my hair.  Felt a gush, checked, and it wasn't blood...but I have no idea what it was.  It was a mustard colour liquid.  So I'm not feeling overly confident that Bebe is okay.

Second Item of Crap!

Still can't find the heartbeat on the Doppler.  Now I have done some research on this Doppler and it only has a sensitivity of 1-2 cm depth.  And there are a lot of people that can't find the heartbeat until past 12 weeks.  But with the cramps and the goosh this morning...Really not feeling confident.

Third Item of Crap!

Had a fight with an employee.  First thing this morning.  An employee came in yesterday hung over and I'm sorry but that is totally unacceptable.  He again was 5 minutes late this morning.  And he started talking back to me this minute I questioned him about being hung over yesterday.  Well anyone who knows me knows that the worst thing you can do is talk back to me.  Suffice it to say it wasn't a great morning at the office.  I'm pretty sure that he is now looking for another job.  But you know what...I don't care...there are so many people out there looking for work, that I'm sure I can find a replacement. 

Fourth Item of Crap!

We have our first OB appointment this morning.  I'm scared shit less.  I have cried most of the morning (when I'm alone).  I feel hopeless.  I said to JD I didn't want to get out of bed.  Because in bed everything was still good.  I should have gone with my gut instinct and just stayed there dammit!

Much Love to All!

5 comments:

DM said...

Hope all goes well at the OB appt this morning. Fear is such a horrible emotion, and we are powerless against it. I am sure all is well with the baby. Keep us updated. Dee

Tiffany said...

Hoping all is well, please update when you can. I remember that fear.. it's horrible. A sick to your stomach, nervous awful feeling. Unfortunately it doesn't ever really go away. Huge hugs to you.

Jess said...

Thinking of you and praying for you and your little one today. Please update us when you can!!!

LisainSK said...

Hoping all is okay...take care!!

Brenda said...

What a horrible morning. You haven't posted an update yet.....I am praying for you all that everything is OK....