I can't seem to stop crying... This sucks... I just feel nothing... God I was hoping I would have some great symptoms and feel like this worked but I have nothing. I'm achy but that's from sitting on my ass for the last 6 days. I feel like I'm going to let everyone down. It's all on me. If this doesn't work it's my fault. It's my body that failed again. I just wish I was a fertile turtle like everyone else in our lives. If it all wasn't so expensive I may not feel so much pressure and stress. But the reality is that it is crazy expensive to attempt a DE cycle. And we only have this shot and our frosties... Even our frosties will take us almost another year to save up to do. This whole journey has been so daunting.
It breaks my heart that I can't easily give this gift to my wonderful husband JD. He deserves this. He deserves to be the wonderful father he would be. He deserves to feel the joy of holding his baby in his arms. If God is listening, please, please, with all that I am, I pray that you are going to answer our prayers and end our journey with the greatest blessing there is on earth, the miracle of a new life.