As stated in Part 1 I've been struggling with where I fit. After our IF journey and settling into being a mommy of 2 I've been left feeling as though I had actually neglected the intellectual in me. Which really isn't the case as our IF journey required me to educate myself to the point of considering nursing. Lol! But here I was sitting at 1 year post partum, maternity leave ending, and not wishing to return to work in the family business. So what is one to do.
I've continued with my running. And I found with that I had time to think. Time to consider my options. My number 1 priority in my life is setting a good example for my daughters. Having employed a large number of 19-20 somethings I can tell you the work ethic that todays youth has been raised with is less than sub par. And that is not something I want for my daughters. I want them to understand that you have to work hard if you want something. Nothing in this life is free and the world owes you nothing.
So I have decided to go back to school. It is going to be very hard to be a full time student, a mom, a wife and a runner, but these are all things I am passionate about so I will work hard to achieve my dreams.
I'm scared. Who wouldn't be? I'm going to be going to class with a bunch of babies! I will be the old lady in the back, probably confused. But I will show up, I will try, and I will set the example that I think my girls will be proud of.
And I'm going to keep pushing with my running. I have signed up for a 1/2 marathon in October and another in May. My aim is to run a full by next October. And then...start training for an iron.man. Oh my gawd...crazy I know. But I feel this need to accomplish this. I'm hoping next summer that we (JD and I) can do 3-4 triathlons in the summer to kick start our training.
There you have it... After a lot of consideration I have discovered that I like myself. I like my personality. I like my work ethic, and my moral compass. I like who I have become. But I feel like it is time to challenge myself physically and intellectually. And that is definitely what I am going to do in the next 2 years.
I hope to post a lot more. Especially since I will be on my computer a lot more now! Lol!
There's no backing out of all of this now...tuition has been paid...races have been paid for...It's all a go. All I'm waiting for now is the starting gun to fire!