It's Beta Day...And I'm nervous... I was the second person at the clinic this morning. I think I should be getting a call within the hour...or I'm hoping... I don't know...
I feel so blessed to even be here. I never thought I would ever get a chance to get pregnant once let alone twice! And in all honesty it is the reason I have peed on 9 yes 9 HPT. LOL! Because looking at 2 solid lines just never gets old, especially when you never get to pee on anything! Hahahaha!
But in all honesty. LolaBean is more than I ever imagined. And you know if things don't turn out as they should...I'm okay with just her. She fulfills me more than I ever would have thought. I'm so full of love for this child. And it's because of this love why I wanted to try for a second. I don't want her to be lonely. I want for her to have the joy of having a sibling to play with, to confide in, to tease, to love.
But I still feel selfish for wanting this. And this is truly only an infertile's feelings. Most normal people don't feel selfish for wanting a second child. But we do...Because there are so many of us still waiting for their firsts. Oh how I wish for all of you to get your first. I pray that you get to experience these joys that I cherish every day. And I do cherish them. Every moment. I thank God for blessing us.