One Year Ago Today!

You became a part of me. I never imagined we would actually be where we are today, even after you and B were transferred I still could not imagine how wonderful life could be. But here I sit one year later rocking you to sleep, loving every inch of you! Even after you pull my hair because of gas, or puke all over my newly showered and clothed body, I still can't wait to kiss you and snuggle you! I find this poem most fitting to describe my love for you and for lost little B.

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
                                  i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

(by E E Cummings)

I love you LolaBean and B. I carry your heart in my heart.

Much love!

Your Mommy